Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Checking In

Oh man, the last couple of weeks have been crazy.  At work my openings were finally approved to fill.  So I started interviewing this week, but it's gonna be a few more weeks at best before I have people picked and offers out to them.  That's OK, it's moving.  I'm still really stressed at work, but I'm trying to take deep breaths and just keep plugging away.

I had my checkup on Monday, I am now 23 weeks.  My next appointment will actually be in 5 weeks, at which time I'll do the glucola screening (yuck) and get my rhogam shot (ouch).  It'll be fun ~ not.  But, I'm almost to viability, so that's amazing!!

So, the doc has worries about my weight gain.  I've only gained about 10 pounds from my pre-pregnancy (and pre-IVF) weight.  That's not much considering I'm pretty thin and short.  I'm at the point where I should be gaining about a pound a week, and that's just. not. happening.  I'm eating, I swear.  But I'm stressed.  I don't have the same appetite that I did when I was pregnant with Bug.  The doc said my fundal height is measuring on, so she feels the baby is growing as he/she should.  Her worry is that because I started out so thin I won't have a lot of stores, and what I do have the baby will take, leaving nothing for me.  I know she's right.  So she told me to find a place to add in more calories each day, and if I think to myself 'I probably shouldn't eat that,' that I should go ahead and eat it.  She said we're just going to keep an eye on it for now.  Otherwise, K20 is great.  Nice strong heartbeat, EXTREMELY active, in general doing well!

On the other hand, I'm dealing with some pretty crazy personal stresses.  K and I will be starting counseling again Monday night, and we definitely need it.  I'm not going to get into what's going on, but it caught me very off guard and I've been a wreck for the last week.  So, I have a feeling that between the work stresses and these new personal stresses, that is part of my weight gain problem.  Especially since over the last week I suddenly feel like I'm not handling much of anything very well, I'm really really struggling.  I feel horrible because it feels like I have a shorter fuse with Bug, not that I'm snapping or yelling at her, but more just that I feel like I'm giving up easier, like when she starts to throw a tantrum.  I try and then I feel like I just can't anymore.

We did have her early intervention meeting yesterday, and they did agree that there is some level of concern on her speech.  So we have another evaluation on 9/24.  Her hearing has been checked out, and that is fine.

So, that's it for now.  A lot, and I'm sorry that I'm not posting more often.  Please hang in there with me!!


  1. Wow, you have a lot on your plate! I hope counseling goes well and you (hopefully) get a break soon!

  2. So what you need to take care of yourself and you babe! Hoping that things level out for you soon! ((hugs))

  3. *Do what you need, not so. I should go to bed :)

  4. Aw, Emms... I'm sorry you've got so much to deal with. The personal part especially sucks. Not knowing exactly (or, really, even remotely, LOL) what you're dealing with, I will just say that I have occasionally looked at Tom and thought about the choices I had in front of me. Compared to what a lot of couples have gone through, we have struggled with so little, and I have never come to the conclusion that life would be better or easier without him. I hope that you both feel the same way when you look at one another.

    Regarding food, can you switch to whole fat yogurt? (I don't know if you've ever had the "cream on top" kind... if you're queasy at ALL, or otherwise don't enjoy a mouthful of fat, I would avoid that one, LOL.)

    Sending love to Bug and K20 (and, of course you and K. Fine, whatever. Muah!)

  5. Oh man as Bean would say. I'm so sorry to hear that things aren't going more smoothly. I can relate completely to having a short fuse and I'm just pregnant with a toddler, I don't have all the other things going on too. I beat myself up sometimes when I don't have the patience that I'd like to have with Bean, but we're all human. She's going to turn out amazing regardless of these few months of my exhaustion and so will Bug. You'll be in my thoughts and hopes that things will get easier and start going more smoothly. Hang in there!