Saturday, July 28, 2012


I'm still here!!

I have had stuff to say, but by the time I get bug to bed at night I'm SO VERY TIRED.  I water the plants, take my shower, watch 20 mins of TV and go to bed.  Yep, that's my life these days.

First I wanted to thank everyone for their comments on my terrible two's post.  I did call EI, and we are in the process of setting up the home visit.  Bug seems more interested in learning the names of things, so I'm hoping that's a good sign.  She seems to want to talk more, just can't quite figure out how.  So we are also getting her ears checked just to make sure that there's no fluid in them.

We had her 24 month check up on Thursday.  She is now 32 inches and 26.1 pounds.  She's smack in the middle of the percentiles.  Not that I care much about them, but this kiddo still seems tiny while seeming huge at the same time.  Crazy, I know.

She turned 2 (OMG, she's 2?!!!) on Wednesday, the 25th.  I took the day off and her GodMother flew in for the day.  Unfortunately K wasn't able to get out of work, so we actually opened up her presents on Thursday, when he was home.  It was very nice.  But on Wednesday we went to the park and played for as long as my arms could take it on the slide.  She swung some too, but she LOVES slides.  We had a blast!!!  Then we had mac and cheese and corn for dinner (her favorites) and she crashed at bedtime.

Yesterday, our sweet little angel baby Holden turned 2 up in heaven.  His parents and younger sister celebrated with cake, ice cream and balloons being lifted up by the wind in the short break in clouds during the rain.  I was sorry I couldn't be there, but let them know that I was thinking of them.  They seem to be doing so well these days, but I know how hard it must still be.  Their daughter just turned 8 months old, and boy is she a cutie.

All in all things have been going good.  I've been trying my best to ward off the tantrums, sometimes successfully, but trying really hard to figure out what it is that she wants to communicate to me.  Some days are better than others.  I really think that EI may be able to help.

All else is well in our lives.  K is working too much, I'm stressed about my work (too many big projects).  But the pregnancy is going well.  I'm almost 17 weeks and most crazy symptoms have dwindled, although not gone away entirely.  I am starting to feel movement, but not too much of it.  I've not put on much weight, but have quite the baby bump.  Those people that I haven't specifically told about the pregnancy have pretty much figured it out by now, although I don't know if/when I'll announce it on Facebook.  K wants to, maybe I'll let him and I'll leave it alone.  I just know of at least 1 person on there dealing with IF, and I'm not sure if there are others.

Well, Bug is calling for attention, so off I go.  Have a great day everyone!!

Monday, July 9, 2012

14 weeks

So, I'm 14 weeks pregnant.  I can't believe it.  I have my next OB appointment Tuesday, and I am so happy about that.  I can't wait to hear this little one's heartbeat again, it makes me relax, even if only for a week.  I love it.

I'm still dealing with some minor morning sickness, and lots of heartburn.  Headaches are still here, and the exhaustion is still crazy.

I am officially starting into the second trimester.  I can't believe that we're already 1/3 of the way through this pregnancy!  I'm really enjoying it, but it is SO MUCH harder with a two year old toddler in tow, and a husband who, unfortunately, isn't home all that often.  (have to love being a flight instructor).

I have, honestly, questioned what in the world we were thinking, adding another baby to this chaos.  The terrible two's with Bug are not helping that question.  I worry that I won't be able to handle it all when K isn't home.  It's scary, but still exciting.  I still can't wait to meet this little one, to hold him or her to my breast.

We won't find out what we're having again.  The surprise was too perfect last time.  But let me state it for the record, that I think it's going to be a boy.

So for your viewing pleasure, here is a picture that I took at 13 weeks 6 days:


Yep, that's a baby in there.  And for comparison sake, here's the bump from when I was pregnant with Bug, at 19 weeks 4 days:


Yeah.  I can't imagine how much bigger I'll be this time around at full term.  See how I'm carrying this one lower??  Or is that just me? Yikes!!!

Saturday, July 7, 2012

Terrible Two's?!

So, Bug's birthday is coming up in just under 3 weeks.  And boy, has she hit the terrible twos!!

I think part of the problem is that she still isn't really talking.  She says (in sign language) More, Eat, Please, Thank you, Milk, Water and Thirsty.  She speaks Mama and Dada (although not very often), This, That, yes, no and Ice.  That's about it.  So I think she's having a hard time communicating, on top of the whole learning to deal with the strong feelings.

Today was a good day.  We only had one mid level and three minor melt downs.  They involved crying and some kicking and hitting of the poor floor.  But there are worse.

Most days, in the time after I get home from work, we manage to have sometimes 3 or more melt downs.  Mind you, this is between about 5:45ish and 7:30ish when she goes to bed.  These melt downs range from minor (not lasting long, mainly just some sitting down and crying), to mid level (crying harder, throwing herself on the floor kicking and screaming) to major (all of the above plus hitting everything in sight including me, the dog, and herself), scratching herself to the point of drawing blood, pulling out her hair, crying so hard she almost pukes, and comes out sweaty and exhausted.

I've tried ignoring, holding through, talking to her softly, talking to her whiny.  I've tried joining her on the floor.  Nothing seems to work.

Is this all normal?  On the weekends it gets BAD.  I mean, sometimes 10, 15 tantrums.  I asked my mom one day if I was like that at her age (or my brother).  She said while we both threw tantrums, they were nothing like Bug's tantrums.

She's obviously a master tantrum thrower.

When K had her in to the dr for her 18 month check up, they gave him some phone numbers to talk to some people about her speech.  They also said we could try to wait it out to 2.  I wanted to call, he wasn't too worried so he misplaced the numbers.  The only new word we seem to have in spoken language since then is ice.  Sometimes I think I hear words (please, eat, more milk, hi, etc etc) but they never last.  I'm honestly getting worried.  And K is hardly ever home, so he doesn't see it as much.  This week was nice, he got almost all of Tuesday, and all day Thursday at home.  Plus, he's home now putting Bug to bed.  Which is so nice.

Speaking of putting bug to bed.  I was really starting to stress because she STILL wasn't going to sleep on her own.  I had no idea how I was going to manage it with her and an infant.  Then we went on vacation and my Mom sleep trained her.  Not in the way I would have chosen, but I was desperate, so it became OK.  She's doing pretty good with letting us put her down and then walk out.  She has cried the last 2 nights though.  I hope it keeps getting better, as I want to try to transition her to a new bed so the new baby can use the crib.  Plus, she won't nap in her crib any longer (she has napped on a cot at daycare for a year now).  So she's been napping on the couch.  I don't love this set up, but it's better than the alternative, which is no nap at all.  She's not ready for that yet.

For the good news, she's still very much a lover when she wants to be.  Nothing makes up for the tantrums more than some big old hugs and kisses from the sweetest little girl I know.