Where have I been?

It seems like it's been forever since I've written. So, where have I been?

Last weekend I had to drive out to Cleveland for my first day of work in my new job. It's a 5 1/2 hour drive, with Bug that ends up being more for breaks and a full sit down meal versus a quick drive through.

Bug's sleeping hasn't been any better. Well, it was for about 3 days, then it got worse again. I have no idea what's going on, although I have a feeling quite a bit of it is due to K being gone (and has been now for over a month). We'll see how it changes once he gets home in about 2 weeks. (which I'm SO over him being gone!!!).

So, I had my open enrollment for work last week. K and I chatted about it, choosing the right health plan, and deciding how much money to put in our flexsave account. Well, we decided on $3,000. We picked this because, even though we were leaning heavily towards doing donor sperm IUI, we have instead decided to go all out and do IVF. With the money from flexsave, plus our return, my bonus and maybe some credit card debt, we think we can make it work. Yes, even with him off. He is fighting the state trying to get his unemployment, which would help GREATLY, but he's being careful to tell them he's out of state because of some stuff he found online. They are trying to tell us that he hasn't paid to the state, but we have his check stubs to prove it, but he has to go into the office to get it hashed out. So I don't know how that's going to work right before we move, but we'll end up filing in Ohio anyways, but I'm concerned about how it'll all pan out.

So big decisions. We'll plan on picking a new RE soon after moving, and probably get things going after the first of the year. That gives me time to get Buggie weaned and get any updated tests that the RE wants to see.

It's been strange working out of this office but not having any reps there report to me like they used to. I'm trying to get some backlogged stuff caught up now before the big move happens. Wish me luck!

On the move front, the movers pack us all up and in the first of the week of Thanksgiving. We get in the car and drive out the day before Thanksgiving, so it'll be nice to spend Thanksgiving with my parents. Then we get the keys and they unload the day after Thanksgiving!

Wow, it's all coming so fast!!

And the GMAT? In case you're wondering... I'm squeezing some studying in here and there, and I take it on Wednesday. It'll be nice to have that off my chest.

Have a great one!!

House Hunt and serious baby fever

So, our house hunt this weekend went really well.  We spent a LOT of time in the car, drove about 1000 miles total, totally screwed up Bug's naps, but I think we have found our house!  It is just contingent on the owner finding an apartment by November 1, that way if she doesn't we have enough time to try to find a new place.  All of the paperwork in regards to my transfer is still going through, so that kinda sucks as I feel a little like I'm in limbo.  The house we are living in now is up for rent, we are signing all the paperwork for our new place, but the work stuff is still being finalized.  Ugh.

Bug is sick, again still.  She's been getting headaches (hitting her head against things), been real tired and grumpy, and has had this absolutely, horrible, knock you over bad breath.  It's SO bad!  I mean, come on, baby's breath usually smells good!  Man, I am telling you, in the middle of the night when it's at its worst I have to turn my head away from her to get some fresh air sometimes!  So, we took her to the doctor yesterday, they did ANOTHER strep test, and it came back negative.  So, they decided to go ahead and put her on an antibiotic since she's been sick for so long now.  On a good note, tooth number 5 popped through the gum last nigh - and it's a top tooth!  Woo Hoo!  Now I just hope the other top tooth comes through, otherwise I might giggle a little at my cutie pie with 4 bottom teeth and 1 top tooth :-)

K left for his training, boo.  We are going to miss him so much.  It's going to be hard with him gone as I'm still trying to study for my GMAT, which I rescheduled (at the cost of $50 thank you) for the beginning of November.  I needed the extra time to study. 

So, I have 4 people in my life that are pregnant right now.  One is due this month, one is due November (my friend that lost her son!), one is due December, and one is due February.  I'm happy for them, but I'm really feeling the strain of wanting another.  Of course K's lay off and this move are slowing the process down.  I work hard to remind myself that we will get a chance to try again, it's just a matter of time.  The best part about it is that I can cuddle bug and it makes me feel so much better.  I just so badly want to give her a sibling.  It's been a year of unprotected sex again, but I didn't get my cycle back until about 6 months ago (or so).  I know it's not affecting me as bad though, because the sex isn't about baby making.  In fact, it's very strange, it's not like that at all.  I think it's because I've accepted that we'll never get the 'happy accident' together, and I have come to terms with that.  We are still stressing a little about IUI versus IVF, but I really have a feeling we'll go donor sperm IUI, just because we don't want that huge age gap. 

Now that I've gone over a  hodge podge of items, I have to get back to work.  Hope everyone is having a great week!

My Friday

Hi All!

Well, Bug is feeling better, but I think her 2 top teeth may finally be getting ready to come in. She got tooth number 4 just about a week ago... another one on the bottom! Once it comes in a little more I'll try to get a picture of it. Her fever finally went away, but then it turned into this all over body rash that looked HORRIBLE. She is still a little on the irritable side, and not sleeping real great, but we're getting there.

On another note, we are getting ready to go house searching. Someone asked in my post about moving, where we were going. We are going to Cleveland, Ohio. We are excited, but nervous and scared too. Wish us luck!

So we agreed that as soon as we move we are going to find a new RE again, and look at getting the process started. We both agreed that we are about 90% prepared to go donor sperm IUI route, in part because of the timing. We really don't want to wait another 5 years while we get K back to work and save up the money that we are going to be eating away during his lay off. I think he's really excited about it. During dinner tonight he was talking about taking Bug out on the boat next year, and taking her swimming, and then was joking with me about me not being able to go because hopefully I'd be pregnant, and I get so darn large when I'm pregnant that I wouldn't be able to swim for fear of being top heavy. (all in good fun joke :-) Then after we had just finished giving Bug a bath, and I was holding her and he was standing next to us, he made a comment that what would complete the picture would be another little one is his arms. It's SO sweet, I know he's really excited about doing it again.

Well, so much more to say, but off to my last class for my GMAT prep course. Which yes, I will still be doing even though we are moving. I'm a glutton for punishment... new job, new city, TTC with help, MBA, K laid off.... yep, I thrive on stress LOL.

Please know - even if I'm not commenting a lot on blogs, I am reading them! It's just a time issue right now...

AHHHHHH

I'm on a quick break during my class that I am taking to prep for my GMAT... and I have to ask myself....

WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING?!

OK, I feel better now. Back to studying and preparing myself to make this dream happen!!

PS - I'm also freaked because we have our first consult with RE#1 tomorrow!!!

YIKES!!!