So, Bug's been sleeping pretty crappy for the last 6 weeks. First, she had an ear infection, so I attributed it to that. Poor kiddo. Then I couldn't figure out what it was. When I could get her tongue out of the way (I swear it doesn't fit in her mouth LOL), her gums weren't red or swollen. BUT, about a week and a half ago I finally felt the nub of a tooth. Well, the last few nights have been really bad, so yesterday I felt the razor sharpness of a tooth! Here's to hoping she's not a biter and my poor boobs can stay in one piece :-)
The cute gummy grin is going away to be replaced by an adorable toothy grin! Yeah for teeth, boo for crankiness LOL.
Needless to say, I've always been worried about using oragel. I'm afraid that she'll spit up (since she's a reflux baby) and I'll use to much and numb her gag reflex and it'll be disasterous. Well, after too many nights of no sleep, and a very cranky baby in the MOTN last night, I gave in and used it. Wow, oh the relief (and not just for her!!!) K was even being really good and trying to let me sleep since I had to work today, but that's pretty hard in a small apartment with a crying baby. I couldn't go back to sleep with that. Ah my poor sweetie.
We get to go sign the lease today on the new house, I'm SO excited.
On another note - AF still hasn't come. I spotted Friday, Saturday and a little bit on Sunday morning, but not any since. K doesn't really think anything of it, and I've never been a POAS'er, but I have to be honest... if she doesn't come full force by the time he leaves again around the first of the month, I might just have to give in... just in case LOL. I know that it's probably just my body working up to it, but it's all about the hoping LOL.
Monday, May 16, 2011
Friday, May 13, 2011
It's not wrong to wish, right?
OK, so I haven't had my first PPAF yet. That means I've been AF free since Oct 2009. I'm not complaining, I haven't missed it one bit :-)
I knew that I would have no idea when to expect it. I'm still BFing, but now that Bug is almost 10 months old, there's a lot of solids mixed in there.
So, this morning I woke up to some bright red in my underwear. Wow, haven't seen that in like, forever. I've heard all these horror stories about the first PPAF, but leading up to today I had no indication at all that she was coming. Which is really strange, because I tend to have a lot of symptoms: sore boobs, insane cramps, backache, headache, you name it. So, I kinda shrug my shoulders and think to myself that maybe things are changing since I've had the kiddo, and my periods won't be as symptomatic.
Then my infertile brain starts doing the dance. We're getting ready to start the process of finding a new RE, and getting into treatments again, here in the next couple of months or so. So, it dances around, what if... what if this could be implantation bleeding, after all, K and I had a lot of fun last weekend while Nana watched Bug for us (happy mothers day to me!!). So, the timing would be right... hmmmm.... maybe, just maybe I hit that 1% chance of K getting me pregnant... not to mention the fact that it's probably lower since that would mean we caught my first ovulation after having Bug. Ha ha ha. We're not even trying yet (and our trying isn't typical at all!) and here my brain starts hoping.
So, I know it's AF coming, I really do, but hey, you can't stop an infertile from hoping can you. Otherwise, what would we spend our time doing?
Needless to say, I'm not looking forward to a 4 hour drive on Sat, and back on Sun, with my first PPAF. That could really suck. So, maybe I'll just keep hoping ;o
~Emms
I knew that I would have no idea when to expect it. I'm still BFing, but now that Bug is almost 10 months old, there's a lot of solids mixed in there.
So, this morning I woke up to some bright red in my underwear. Wow, haven't seen that in like, forever. I've heard all these horror stories about the first PPAF, but leading up to today I had no indication at all that she was coming. Which is really strange, because I tend to have a lot of symptoms: sore boobs, insane cramps, backache, headache, you name it. So, I kinda shrug my shoulders and think to myself that maybe things are changing since I've had the kiddo, and my periods won't be as symptomatic.
Then my infertile brain starts doing the dance. We're getting ready to start the process of finding a new RE, and getting into treatments again, here in the next couple of months or so. So, it dances around, what if... what if this could be implantation bleeding, after all, K and I had a lot of fun last weekend while Nana watched Bug for us (happy mothers day to me!!). So, the timing would be right... hmmmm.... maybe, just maybe I hit that 1% chance of K getting me pregnant... not to mention the fact that it's probably lower since that would mean we caught my first ovulation after having Bug. Ha ha ha. We're not even trying yet (and our trying isn't typical at all!) and here my brain starts hoping.
So, I know it's AF coming, I really do, but hey, you can't stop an infertile from hoping can you. Otherwise, what would we spend our time doing?
Needless to say, I'm not looking forward to a 4 hour drive on Sat, and back on Sun, with my first PPAF. That could really suck. So, maybe I'll just keep hoping ;o
~Emms
Thursday, May 12, 2011
A big Thank You!
I just want to send out a big Thank You to a fellow blogger, and follower of mine, over at
http://counterfeitfake.blogspot.com/
First, I want to say that I love this blogger. I have been following her for a while (in my world anyways, so almost as long as I've been blogging), and I can always depend on her for a good laugh. I just really love her blog.
She's been following me for a bit too, and she is great and is constantly commenting, makes me glad to know that someone is reading LOL.
Well, to the main reason for the post! She commented on my post from yesterday, and I just had to share. My post was about milk sharing again through Eats on Feets, and here is her comment:
~~~Hey, because of your post about Eats on Feets, I was able to pass info along to someone on Facebook yesterday. Now some mama in Indiana will have more milk to give her little one. Thought you might like to know. ~~~
This makes me so happy. This is the point of Eats on Feets, to hook up mama's that have extra milk with those that need it. It is such an amazing thing, watching relationships build because of these gestures of kindness. To know that something as simple as my posts on my blog about sharing helped to familiarize someone with EOF, and that person was able to spread the word. In turn, another baby gets this liquid gold!!
These are not small gestures, babies on the receiving end are able to get what their mama feels is best for them, they are able to get off of formula which is sometimes causing them problems - gastro, reflux, exczema, you name it.
Mama's on the giving end are taking the time out of their day to pump this liquid gold, and then are willing to give it away. Let me tell you, the time commitments are not small. I pump right now 3 to 4 times a day, and between pumping, cleaning up, and packing alone I think I spend an hour and a half or more every day. Then every few weeks I take another 30 or so minutes to rotate the milk so that the oldest is either what I use or donate to another mama. For me, I would be doing it anyways. I would be buying the bags for storage. I would be taking the time to pump. For someone like me with such a great supply, I don't have to cry as I am throwing overage away. Instead I outreach to my mama's. If they are not in need I go back to the EOF facebook page and find myself a new mama. It is an amazing page, please go check it out if you have not already.
I'm not here to give myself kudos, but really to remind everyone of Eats on Feets. To mention it to your nursing mama friends, or those that are talking about problems with their supply. This is a kudos to all those mama's out there that are giving, and all those mama's out there that are receiving.
I will stop pumping when Bug is 12 months. In many ways this makes me sad, as it will end this portion of my relationship with these mama's that I have come to know. The good thing is that these relationships have taken on a life of their own. We are friends now, the mama that is in my same city and I have dinner together, let our little girls play together. We enjoy each others company.
Thank you to Eats on Feets. Thank you for starting up just when I was realizing I needed to do something with all my extra milk. Thank you to those mama's that are willing to give away this liquid gold to a baby in need. Thank you to those mama's that are more than happy to take that liquid gold off of our hands and feed it to their precious, deserving babies.
Thank you Shan, for reading my blog and sharing what you have learned.
(PS - as I've mentioned before in my posts about milk sharing, I am NOT saying that formula feeding is bad, if that is what is right for you and your baby, then I am 100% behind you! This is just what is right for me, for Bug, and for those babies out there that I am able to help feed)
http://counterfeitfake.blogspot.com/
First, I want to say that I love this blogger. I have been following her for a while (in my world anyways, so almost as long as I've been blogging), and I can always depend on her for a good laugh. I just really love her blog.
She's been following me for a bit too, and she is great and is constantly commenting, makes me glad to know that someone is reading LOL.
Well, to the main reason for the post! She commented on my post from yesterday, and I just had to share. My post was about milk sharing again through Eats on Feets, and here is her comment:
~~~Hey, because of your post about Eats on Feets, I was able to pass info along to someone on Facebook yesterday. Now some mama in Indiana will have more milk to give her little one. Thought you might like to know. ~~~
This makes me so happy. This is the point of Eats on Feets, to hook up mama's that have extra milk with those that need it. It is such an amazing thing, watching relationships build because of these gestures of kindness. To know that something as simple as my posts on my blog about sharing helped to familiarize someone with EOF, and that person was able to spread the word. In turn, another baby gets this liquid gold!!
These are not small gestures, babies on the receiving end are able to get what their mama feels is best for them, they are able to get off of formula which is sometimes causing them problems - gastro, reflux, exczema, you name it.
Mama's on the giving end are taking the time out of their day to pump this liquid gold, and then are willing to give it away. Let me tell you, the time commitments are not small. I pump right now 3 to 4 times a day, and between pumping, cleaning up, and packing alone I think I spend an hour and a half or more every day. Then every few weeks I take another 30 or so minutes to rotate the milk so that the oldest is either what I use or donate to another mama. For me, I would be doing it anyways. I would be buying the bags for storage. I would be taking the time to pump. For someone like me with such a great supply, I don't have to cry as I am throwing overage away. Instead I outreach to my mama's. If they are not in need I go back to the EOF facebook page and find myself a new mama. It is an amazing page, please go check it out if you have not already.
I'm not here to give myself kudos, but really to remind everyone of Eats on Feets. To mention it to your nursing mama friends, or those that are talking about problems with their supply. This is a kudos to all those mama's out there that are giving, and all those mama's out there that are receiving.
I will stop pumping when Bug is 12 months. In many ways this makes me sad, as it will end this portion of my relationship with these mama's that I have come to know. The good thing is that these relationships have taken on a life of their own. We are friends now, the mama that is in my same city and I have dinner together, let our little girls play together. We enjoy each others company.
Thank you to Eats on Feets. Thank you for starting up just when I was realizing I needed to do something with all my extra milk. Thank you to those mama's that are willing to give away this liquid gold to a baby in need. Thank you to those mama's that are more than happy to take that liquid gold off of our hands and feed it to their precious, deserving babies.
Thank you Shan, for reading my blog and sharing what you have learned.
(PS - as I've mentioned before in my posts about milk sharing, I am NOT saying that formula feeding is bad, if that is what is right for you and your baby, then I am 100% behind you! This is just what is right for me, for Bug, and for those babies out there that I am able to help feed)
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Milk
So, the other week I gave my number one mama some more milk. My freezer has two parts, the main part, and then a drawer on the bottom. When I move my milk around I always put the oldest in the drawer (and some in the regular freezer) and use that first. Well, when I got this mama some milk, I must not have fully closed the drawer all the way.
Almost two weeks later I realized it, and of course, had to throw all the milk in the drawer away as it had started to thaw. It made me so sad.
The reason that it is crossing my mind again is because my second milk mama sent me a message to see if I would have any to give her in a couple of weeks. It saddens me that neither of my mama's got to use this bit of gold, instead I had to throw it away.
Luckily, the drawer was the smaller part, so while it was a lot, it didn't deplete my stash too much. In fact, I think that in a couple of weeks I should even be able to give her a hundred ounces, not as much as in the past, but anything I can give this little girl, the better.
On another note - I love heat, I love summer. BUT, I would rather be weaned into it. not jumping to this high 80's with crazy humidity. I mean really, my car read 95 degrees when I got in it after work yesterday! And the A/C at my office is deciding not to work right... the rest of the office is fine, but a couple of our offices inside of it are HOT HOT HOT.
Happy Hump Day everyone!!
~Emms
Almost two weeks later I realized it, and of course, had to throw all the milk in the drawer away as it had started to thaw. It made me so sad.
The reason that it is crossing my mind again is because my second milk mama sent me a message to see if I would have any to give her in a couple of weeks. It saddens me that neither of my mama's got to use this bit of gold, instead I had to throw it away.
Luckily, the drawer was the smaller part, so while it was a lot, it didn't deplete my stash too much. In fact, I think that in a couple of weeks I should even be able to give her a hundred ounces, not as much as in the past, but anything I can give this little girl, the better.
On another note - I love heat, I love summer. BUT, I would rather be weaned into it. not jumping to this high 80's with crazy humidity. I mean really, my car read 95 degrees when I got in it after work yesterday! And the A/C at my office is deciding not to work right... the rest of the office is fine, but a couple of our offices inside of it are HOT HOT HOT.
Happy Hump Day everyone!!
~Emms
Monday, May 9, 2011
home!
Well, I just got our call. We got the rental house that we wanted! I am so excited! The owners even agreed to reduce rent a little for us to sign a 2 year lease. We move at the end of June, and if I ever figure out how to put pictures inside my posts I will show you the new place!
Yeah!!!
Yeah!!!
Friday, May 6, 2011
Wish me luck!
So, I think I found a house for us to rent. It's beautiful, and has just about everything we were hoping to find.
It's about $100 more expensive then we wanted to go, but so long as we get our house back home rented out, it will be OK. I turned in our application and app fee today. We should find out the beginning of the week if we got it or not.
I'm not excited to move, but I'm super excited to get out of an apartment and back into a house! I don't even care that I'll have to take care of the lawn when K isn't around, it's not too big, and I can totally make it happen!!
Emms
It's about $100 more expensive then we wanted to go, but so long as we get our house back home rented out, it will be OK. I turned in our application and app fee today. We should find out the beginning of the week if we got it or not.
I'm not excited to move, but I'm super excited to get out of an apartment and back into a house! I don't even care that I'll have to take care of the lawn when K isn't around, it's not too big, and I can totally make it happen!!
Emms
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Smiles
So, as I feel like I've had a few whining posts lately, I am going to leave you today with some things that make me smile.
Bugs hugs. She loves giving them and I love getting them. She will reach around you and pull you in close. It is so sweet.
K. His love for me surpasses anything I have ever felt before. He makes me whole. Without him I would be in a bad way.
My mom. She is my rock. I love that I can call her when I am having a tough day and she can help me feel better.
Camping. I am so excited for some long weekends this summer!
My dog, B. She drives me crazy, and is tough to care for when K isn't here. But she was our first baby and is so darn sweet.
My best friend C. She keeps me grounded. She can tell me when I am being a bitch and it's ok. We've been friends for 19 or so years. she is amazing. We have our own lives but can always pick right back up, even from 4 hours away.
My job and my employees. Seems strange, but it is a lot of fun along with the stress. I work in a small satellite office, and we all get along. No drama. It's awesome.
Hot baths. Need I say more.
Massages. It's about time for me to use my gift card for one.
A nice glass of red wine (a medoc tonight) and a little good dark chocolate.
Infertility treatments. Without them we wouldn't have the possibility to give K a biological child.
Love. Support. Understanding. From my friends and family. Thank you all!
Emms
Bugs hugs. She loves giving them and I love getting them. She will reach around you and pull you in close. It is so sweet.
K. His love for me surpasses anything I have ever felt before. He makes me whole. Without him I would be in a bad way.
My mom. She is my rock. I love that I can call her when I am having a tough day and she can help me feel better.
Camping. I am so excited for some long weekends this summer!
My dog, B. She drives me crazy, and is tough to care for when K isn't here. But she was our first baby and is so darn sweet.
My best friend C. She keeps me grounded. She can tell me when I am being a bitch and it's ok. We've been friends for 19 or so years. she is amazing. We have our own lives but can always pick right back up, even from 4 hours away.
My job and my employees. Seems strange, but it is a lot of fun along with the stress. I work in a small satellite office, and we all get along. No drama. It's awesome.
Hot baths. Need I say more.
Massages. It's about time for me to use my gift card for one.
A nice glass of red wine (a medoc tonight) and a little good dark chocolate.
Infertility treatments. Without them we wouldn't have the possibility to give K a biological child.
Love. Support. Understanding. From my friends and family. Thank you all!
Emms
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