So, Friday we had our appointment with RE#3 (RE#1 since we moved). Let's call her, hmmmm, how about Dr. Duh. That's what I kind of felt like while we were talking over our history. Once she got down to the nitty gritty she seemed to know what she was talking about, but she just seemed a little air headed or something. We didn't hate her, but didn't love her either.
We honestly walked out both wishing that we had finished what we started back before we moved. We agreed we would have probably used Dr. Erb. Either way, she wants me to get all my cycle testing updated, get an updated sperm analysis and some genetic testing on K. It seemed like these two tests that she wants for him, if they turn out that he has them, she might not want to do IVF w/ICSI with his boys. She gave the impression that she didn't want to play God.
Um. Yeah. Anyone else see any irony here? That's what I thought.
But OK, maybe there are long term repercussions, which we didn't quick think to ask at the moment. So we'll probably get them done.
However. There was another RE here that I had tried to call originally but couldn't get through. So I tried again on Monday, and got through. Set up an initial consult for February 16.
We actually went out to dinner after the appointment on Friday and seriously discussed just stopping the insanity. Just being OK with one kid. This all came up after being slightly disappointed with the RE, with weaning not going well (it's slowly getting better), and just the stress in general. Plus, Bug has been a pill for the last week and a half or so. We really had to talk that one through, discuss the pros and con's to having her be an only child.
But we couldn't agree to that. We want to give it this try. One more time. So I set up this second consult, and we'll see how that goes. Then we'll go from there and make the decision on who we will move forward with. We did agree that if it doesn't work, then we'll stick to our original plan of doing just one IVF, FET if there are any on ice after the IVF, maybe a couple of cycles of donor sperm IUI, and then onto adoption. Still an option if nothing seems to be panning out is to go the one child route.
So much insanity.
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Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Friday, December 16, 2011
A need to write
I don't know why, but I just feel a need to write. I don't really have anything to write about, but the day at work today was a little crazy.
- I keep wanting to make an appointment with an RE or two, but I'm so stressed about money I feel guilty about doing it. We just had to pay $1100 to get our car fixed, so that was one more thing.
- I'm not sure if anyone remembers V, the boss from hell (you can read about her here). Well, we now report to the same director again, so we have to work closer. I got invited to a Holiday Dinner with one of my staff members for a provider that the rep used to handle, but is now handled by a rep under V. It was cleared for me to go by the provider so I said I would. The day before the dinner, V called and bitched me out because they were not MY providers, that I hadn't helped them in any way over the year, that it was inappropriate that I go to this dinner especially when she wasn't going, yadda yadda yadda. I mean, a real c word that I hate but can almost stand using it when talking about her. I mean really? It's not a meeting, it's a holiday dinner. I ended up talking to my director about it, who couldn't understand why V thought it was such an issue and told me to go. So K and I did, last night. We had a blast!
- My cousin had her baby a couple of days ago, she's such a cutie pie!
- A coworker of mine ran out of here in tears today because they are taking her husband in for an emergency MRI due to some sudden vision loss issues. They are afraid it's a mass or something. She lost her mom only a year and 1/2 ago. Please keep her in your prayers if you are a praying type.
- One of my staff members (who doesn't work on Friday's) had to rush her daughter to the emergency room today (1 month younger than bug) because she woke up covered in blood that came from her nose and mouth. They had talked to the ped about her bruising earlier this week at her check up. I am so afraid for her, and I can't wait to get home and hug bug. Please keep this family in your prayers as well.
- I am in the process of hiring for two open positions, one I know who I'm going to hire, but I can't find anyone good for the second. I'm pretty desperate. My VP has high expectations of me, he 'knows' that I can do a great job hiring, training, and getting great analytical minds on my staff. No pressure.
- Christmas is coming too soon, and I'm almost done shopping. It's a cheap Christmas this year due to the money struggles, but that makes it all the more special.
- I'm hoping for a date night tomorrow night (with a gift card we have), K and I need it. We've had a few fights in the last couple of weeks, I think just because of the stress. But we handle our fights so much better than we used to. We learned how to TALK. It's amazing and makes me so happy.
Friday, September 2, 2011
So much to say!!!
I don't know where to begin!!
So, right after we found out that K was going to get furloughed, we talked about me going back for my masters. I've been wanting to do it for a while, and was getting ready to when I found out I was pregnant. The time hasn't really been right since then, with Bug being so young and K being gone so much. The timing was perfect now, because right about the time we were finding out of K's impending furlough, the other manager in the office (with less experience then me) got promoted to director and is now my boss. (I wasn't even given an opportunity to try for this job, and I just had to teach him to interview for an open position!!!). The next day a competitor to my company called and wanted to talk about a job, but while it was more money, it was going to be a lateral move.
Wow.
So, I thanked the competitor and told them to keep me in mind, but for now I was not looking for a lateral move. This was a tough decision to make, but I think it's for the best right now.
Then today, I signed up to take a test prep course through Kaplan for my GMAT. I'd like to have already taken it and been applying to meet that Oct 1 deadline that most schools have for their first round, but I didn't want to wait another year. So, the class will end on Oct 5 and I'll try to take the GMAT soon after that, then apply for grad school. I'm super excited, but so nervous. I've been out for 5 years now (after it took 8 years to work through my associates and undergrad), but I've wanted to go back since I left.
So, where does this fall in with TTC? Good question. We are still going to our first initial consults next week. I'm excited and nervous, but K and I had a discussion that anything we could do to continue moving forward with our lives during the TTC process, well, we would do them. I know that school will be tough with going through IVF and a young one at home, but hey, I tend to work best under lots of pressure and stress!
Beyond that, work helps pay for school. I'll still have to take student loans too, but it's a lot of help. IVF will be out of our pocket, and even though we're meeting with docs next week, I don't think we'll be able to start a cycle for a few months with K's future uncertain right now. (we still haven't gotten notice of his furlough, ugh). So, we can't justify cleaning out savings right now for IVF if he is going to be out of a job - we'll need that money to pay bills. (having the house back home that we rent out doesn't help, unfortunately we collect less than what our mortgage is). Especially as we are not sure how much he'll get from unemployment, and then how much he'll make in a new job. If we knew it was going to be another year, then I would do it and not worry about it.
We've been working on this sleep training, and to be honest, she sleeps better when K goes in then when I do. If I do, she just wants to nurse, and will scream if we don't, which just wakes her up all the way. The last 2 nights K took care of her at night, and she slept until 6:30. Last night it was all me, and she was up at 5. Go figure.
On a last note, and in line with a lot of my other posts lately, but backing up a bit.... I was on my way home today and listening to the soundtrack from City of Angels (good soundtrack, great tear filled movie for me). The Alanis Morrisette song came on, and it reminded me of the year that K and I met, and how hard I tried to scare him off. Then I saw a go fast bike going down the road, with a guy on it with a similar build to K, and it really got me going. I remember the first time I saw K on his go fast bike. It's the same one he still has today, so it's about 13 years old by now. But, it was before they banned Smoking Joe from advertising for Camel Cigarette's. Remember him? Well, every year for just a few years Honda made a go fast bike with Smoking Joe on it. While this one isn't his, here's what it looks like:
I think they made 2000 for the few years that they made them. So not RARE per se, but not easy to come by either. K got the 1998th one (if I remember right) made in 1998, the last year that they made them. Pretty cool.
Anyways, the first time I saw him on it was amazing. I got so turned on, being young (only 19) and naive. He was hot, the bike was hot, and he had a lot of fun on it (not as stupid as some, but he enjoyed the speed for sure). The first time I got on it with him I was in love. Holding tight to him, feeling the power between our legs... wow, it was so amazing.
I haven't been on that bike in years. He probably has only been on it a few times in the last couple of years, and doesn't drive it near as crazy. But man, I suddenly want to see him on it again, when Bug isn't home, and then enjoy some adult time :-)
So, right after we found out that K was going to get furloughed, we talked about me going back for my masters. I've been wanting to do it for a while, and was getting ready to when I found out I was pregnant. The time hasn't really been right since then, with Bug being so young and K being gone so much. The timing was perfect now, because right about the time we were finding out of K's impending furlough, the other manager in the office (with less experience then me) got promoted to director and is now my boss. (I wasn't even given an opportunity to try for this job, and I just had to teach him to interview for an open position!!!). The next day a competitor to my company called and wanted to talk about a job, but while it was more money, it was going to be a lateral move.
Wow.
So, I thanked the competitor and told them to keep me in mind, but for now I was not looking for a lateral move. This was a tough decision to make, but I think it's for the best right now.
Then today, I signed up to take a test prep course through Kaplan for my GMAT. I'd like to have already taken it and been applying to meet that Oct 1 deadline that most schools have for their first round, but I didn't want to wait another year. So, the class will end on Oct 5 and I'll try to take the GMAT soon after that, then apply for grad school. I'm super excited, but so nervous. I've been out for 5 years now (after it took 8 years to work through my associates and undergrad), but I've wanted to go back since I left.
So, where does this fall in with TTC? Good question. We are still going to our first initial consults next week. I'm excited and nervous, but K and I had a discussion that anything we could do to continue moving forward with our lives during the TTC process, well, we would do them. I know that school will be tough with going through IVF and a young one at home, but hey, I tend to work best under lots of pressure and stress!
Beyond that, work helps pay for school. I'll still have to take student loans too, but it's a lot of help. IVF will be out of our pocket, and even though we're meeting with docs next week, I don't think we'll be able to start a cycle for a few months with K's future uncertain right now. (we still haven't gotten notice of his furlough, ugh). So, we can't justify cleaning out savings right now for IVF if he is going to be out of a job - we'll need that money to pay bills. (having the house back home that we rent out doesn't help, unfortunately we collect less than what our mortgage is). Especially as we are not sure how much he'll get from unemployment, and then how much he'll make in a new job. If we knew it was going to be another year, then I would do it and not worry about it.
We've been working on this sleep training, and to be honest, she sleeps better when K goes in then when I do. If I do, she just wants to nurse, and will scream if we don't, which just wakes her up all the way. The last 2 nights K took care of her at night, and she slept until 6:30. Last night it was all me, and she was up at 5. Go figure.
On a last note, and in line with a lot of my other posts lately, but backing up a bit.... I was on my way home today and listening to the soundtrack from City of Angels (good soundtrack, great tear filled movie for me). The Alanis Morrisette song came on, and it reminded me of the year that K and I met, and how hard I tried to scare him off. Then I saw a go fast bike going down the road, with a guy on it with a similar build to K, and it really got me going. I remember the first time I saw K on his go fast bike. It's the same one he still has today, so it's about 13 years old by now. But, it was before they banned Smoking Joe from advertising for Camel Cigarette's. Remember him? Well, every year for just a few years Honda made a go fast bike with Smoking Joe on it. While this one isn't his, here's what it looks like:
Anyways, the first time I saw him on it was amazing. I got so turned on, being young (only 19) and naive. He was hot, the bike was hot, and he had a lot of fun on it (not as stupid as some, but he enjoyed the speed for sure). The first time I got on it with him I was in love. Holding tight to him, feeling the power between our legs... wow, it was so amazing.
I haven't been on that bike in years. He probably has only been on it a few times in the last couple of years, and doesn't drive it near as crazy. But man, I suddenly want to see him on it again, when Bug isn't home, and then enjoy some adult time :-)
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