Welcome to the third trimester....

And welcome to severe back pain.

 My back has been hurting over the last couple of months, but within the last couple of weeks it has gotten progressively worse and worse. By this last week it was hurting as early as about 10am and not stopping... all.... day.... long. My OB suggested a maternity support belt, and I've been wearing one for the last couple of days with minimal relief. It breaks my heart because it's hurting so bad that it's hard to snuggle with bug, which is an issue I'll mention in a bit. I'm not sure how to make it better, but I think I'm going to try a massage tomorrow. Other typical aids haven't done a whole lot, but when K rubs on it a bit it seems to help.

I can't believe that I only have about 11 weeks left until my due date. I have no idea where the time has gone! It's so very exciting, I really can't wait to meet this little one. I suspect it's a boy, K thinks it's a girl. The bets are on :-)

The newest struggle I'm having is now realizing that Bug is no longer going to be our only baby, that we're going to lose that one on one daily time that we get now. Everything is going to have to be shared now, including our time and love. I know that the love will multiply and that we will love both the same, but it's so hard to know that she won't be the only one anymore. It's becoming more and more real, and it's kind of hard.

We were out with a friend last week that has 2 kids, the second one just shy of 9 months old. I was holding him while my friend went to the bathroom and bug had a meltdown because I was holding another baby. That kicked my thoughts into high gear of course, because I know it's going to be such a transition for her. 

But, I still can't wait to meet this little one. I am so excited for the coming weeks to pass, but I know that this will be my last pregnancy, so I also don't want to wish them away. Even with the back pain I'm trying to enjoy every minute, every kick, every hiccup. I love it all. I love this new little one.

My weight has finally caught up (part of the back pain I'm sure), so all seems to be looking good with this pregnancy. Some days it still feels unreal. I had someone question when I was due the other day and had to honestly think for a minute to realize she meant me, the pregnant me!

That's about it for now, but I'm gonna try to blog more often!!

14 weeks

So, I'm 14 weeks pregnant.  I can't believe it.  I have my next OB appointment Tuesday, and I am so happy about that.  I can't wait to hear this little one's heartbeat again, it makes me relax, even if only for a week.  I love it.

I'm still dealing with some minor morning sickness, and lots of heartburn.  Headaches are still here, and the exhaustion is still crazy.

I am officially starting into the second trimester.  I can't believe that we're already 1/3 of the way through this pregnancy!  I'm really enjoying it, but it is SO MUCH harder with a two year old toddler in tow, and a husband who, unfortunately, isn't home all that often.  (have to love being a flight instructor).

I have, honestly, questioned what in the world we were thinking, adding another baby to this chaos.  The terrible two's with Bug are not helping that question.  I worry that I won't be able to handle it all when K isn't home.  It's scary, but still exciting.  I still can't wait to meet this little one, to hold him or her to my breast.

We won't find out what we're having again.  The surprise was too perfect last time.  But let me state it for the record, that I think it's going to be a boy.

So for your viewing pleasure, here is a picture that I took at 13 weeks 6 days:



Yep, that's a baby in there.  And for comparison sake, here's the bump from when I was pregnant with Bug, at 19 weeks 4 days:



Yeah.  I can't imagine how much bigger I'll be this time around at full term.  See how I'm carrying this one lower??  Or is that just me? Yikes!!!

Today

We had our first OB appointment.  I have been doing pretty good since my last post, but I have let the fear creep in when I wasn't paying close enough attention and let my guard down.  So, today was magical.  She warned me that they might not be able to hear the heartbeat on the doppler yet, but said if we didn't we'd check by ultrasound.  As it turns out it didn't matter.  Immediately upon putting the doppler on my stomach our newest little ones heartbeat came through loud and clear.  She didn't even have to look for it, she got it right on her first try.

Amazing.  Lovely.  Perfect.

In 30 weeks, we are having a baby.